Saturday, September 11, 2010

sanding my room!

suddenly my room was full of sand. Dust from the wood. Hä? The wind from the desert came, i had the window open and my room was sanded.


I had an ugly floor in my room. Julian had an ugly floor in his room. Julian wanted to make his room beautiful. I wanted too. We rented a machine because we wanted to sand our floors by ourselves. We wanted to varnish the floors by ourselves. Great. Doesn't sound like a hard thing. But it is !
I didn't think that the third day I live in Berlin, I would be scraping the red paint and finding the beautiful wood under it.

We found a working vacuum cleaner outside next to the trash bin
and met our neighbors, one is a dancer too.

Julian in the corner.

The floor is not ready yet. My hands are still shaking.
I come to Finland on Tuesday.
I have met many friends and have been busy all the time.
It takes a lot of time to travel here.

Saturday, September 4, 2010


Nyt tästä runoilublogista tulee jotain muuta. Now this poetry blog is evolving into something else.

Päätin alkaa kirjoittamaan blogia. I decided to start to write a blog about me going to Berlin, and then what happens?

Ja Mitä sitten tapahtui? Vem ska tröstä Nyyti?

My trip, my move, my visit is happening because i have the moment in my life when i don’t HAVE TO be anywhere. Before it came an existential crisis I made a big decision to move to berlin, to do something and to start to build something around something.

Some things:

- Contact improvisation

This is my passion. It’s a form of new or post-modern or contemporary or whatever dance where people dance together. In Berlin I start an intensive workshop with Joerg Hassmann and Daniel Werner ( It starts on September and ends in March 2011.

- German language

I want to learn to speak it. I have studied German for 7 years !!! I got eximia from short German test in Gymnasium. I believe in myself that I would learn it quite fast and I need to test that.

- A flat

In the beginning of August I got a flat trough a friend, Jacob, who was worried if I’ll get a place to stay. All the other people were really relaxed and said I’ll find something; it’s easy in Berlin etc. But Jacob send me an e-mail address for Julian and I got a place to live in. The cool thing in the apartment is the extra room we are going to have empty for dancing and doing art and whatever. My roommates are both artists and it rhymes with moving to Berlin.

- The City of Berlin

I have visited there once, it was last spring when I already had thought about moving there. I travelled in New York, Stockholm, Göttingen, Tampere and Helsinki that spring and the nicest places I found in Berlin. It’s a huge city, but still relaxed. I felt like home there. And I got to choose. I don’t want to live in a place where everyone has to fight for their living, I’m lazy and I want to have time to meet people and do the things I want to do.

There is a catch and a challenge in moving to another country and it’s called The BYROCRACY. Just love it! I already got tricked and I have to go back to Finland to personally walk to KELA in Porvoo and take a paper and bring it to Työkkäri. This happens, because no one told me I couldn’t leave yet. Actually I asked a lady in Työkkäri and she said, “of course you can go”. If I would want to just hang out in Berlin for couple of months, it would be easier, but I’m trying to get the unemployment money and then maybe a work. In EU it’s possible to get the unemployment money from your own country to another country for three months. They haven’t made it too easy. I needed to be unemployed in Finland for one month first and then I can go to try to find a job in Europe.

When I’ll get to Berlin after coming to Finland again, I need to go to the unemployment office there and then it should be fine. Huh.

I take this as a ninja-challenge of how to survive in this man-made paper jungle.

The lady in Työkkäri said herself laughing that actually all this complications gives a lot of work for many people. I’m happy when I can give work to someone, wow.

Työtä työkkärille!

It is scary from Finland, from the forest of Ilomantsi, to plan your life in somewhere else. It doesn’t feel real, it’s more like a story, and it’s a movie or a book. I’ve felt people being bit doubtful. Of course most of the people are on my side.

I hope when I get there it stops feeling like a story someone else has heard or read. I want the reality-TV and arty music videos to be my life ! <3